The Soldier and the Emerald 6

Poor Spain X Male Soldier Reader

Nita jumps at the sound a slam then a thump. She peeks out of the kitchen into the living room. She sees (Name) sprawled face down on the couch.

“What’s wrong?” she asks, walking into the room

(Name) answers but it is muffled by the pillow his face is in.

“Can you repeat that?” she asks

“I kissed him” (Name) says, turning his head to the side then back into the pillow

“And?” Nita urges, smiling

(Name) rolls over so he is staring at the ceiling.

“And nothing, I still don’t know if I love him”

Nita’s smile vanishes. She stares at (Name) with a blank expression that slowly turns annoyed.

“So you just left him hanging?” she asks, clearly irritated

“I didn’t leave him hanging, I told him I didn’t know and left, I don’t want to make him think I love him when I don’t know”

Nita sighs.

“Poor baby is probably crying his eyes out now”

(Name) sits up, now looking annoyed himself.

“Antonio is stronger than that” he retorts

“Physically yes but emotionally, I don’t think he is”

(Name) stops to think. Antonio had managed to run quite a bit from him and the other guards and he knew running into crowds made it easier to get away. However he seemed so scared at the thought of never seeing his sons again. (Name) groans and face plants into the pillow again.

“I’ll talk to him the day after tomorrow since I have the day off” he mumbles

“Good boy” Nita says smiling “Now come for dinner before it gets cold”

(Name) gets up and follows her to the kitchen.

~

After dinner is finished and everything is cleaned up (Name) walks to his room and flops on the bed. He stares at the ceiling, lost in thought. His mind rewinds to Antonio’s expression after he told him. The man looked so heartbroken.

‘I need to talk to him’

(Name) stands and gets ready for bed.

‘I just hope he is willing listen’

~

Soon the day arrives and (Name) finds himself standing on Antonio’s doorstep.

‘He probably doesn’t even want to see me’

He turns to leave but suddenly the bag he is holding weighs him down.

‘I have to at least try’

He turns back and knocks on the door before he can change his mind. He freezes when he hears two pairs of footsteps coming to the door. There is the sound of someone trying to reach the door handle then a familiar voice.

“Fratello, I can’t reach the door handle” Feliciano whines

“I can’t reach it either dumbass” Lovino retorts

“Papa, someone is at the door!” Feliciano yells, making (Name) flinch

“Coming” Antonio yells back walking to the door

‘Oh no he’s coming, deep breathes (Name), calm down’

The door opens and Antonio blanches.

“(N-Name), what are you doing here?” Antonio asks nervously

“I-I wanted to learn how to cook something but Nita is visiting some friends so I though you could help me” (Name) says, just as nervous

“R-Right, come in” Antonio says, holding the door open for him

As soon as (Name) walks in Feliciano grabs his pant leg.

“Are you going to make us something special?” he asks with big eyes

“I don’t know Feli, I’m still a beginner” (Name) answers smiling

“This way” Antonio says, his voice flat

Antonio leads him to the kitchen where (Name) places the bag on the counter.

“What do you want to make?” Antonio asks, voice still flat

“I don’t know, I’ll show you what I brought and we can make something with that” (Name) says

(Name) reaches into the bag and pulls out carrots, green beans, and tomatoes.

“We can make tomato soup with cut up carrots and green beans” Antonio says, taking out a cutting board

He hands (Name) the cutting board and a knife.

“You can start by cutting the carrots and green beans”

(Name) nods and does as told while Antonio takes out another cutting board and stars cutting up the tomatoes. It is quiet between the two with (Name) taking glances at Antonio who is unusually quiet until.

“Ow!”

Antonio’s head snaps up to see (Name) holding up his finger which has a cut on it. He runs over and takes his wrist and leads him to the table then pushes him into a seat.

“Stay” he orders then quickly rushes off

He comes back with a first aid kit that he sets on the table. He gets a cloth and wets it then takes (Names) hand to wipe the blood away. (Name) winces but remains quiet. Antonio examines the cut that goes from one side of the finger to the other.

“What were you doing that made you get such a big cut?” he asks, taking out the antiseptic

“Looking at you” (Name) answers

Antonio freezes, his cheeks pink.

“W-Why would you be doing that?” he asks, looking at (Name)

“Well, I was trying to find the right time to apologize”

Antonio looks up confused.

“Apologize? For what?”

“For before”

Antonio blinks then smiles, returning to cleaning the cut.

“No, it’s my fault for getting my hopes up”

(Name) reaches up and tilts Antonio’s head so he is looking at him.

“Antonio, it’s not that I don’t like you, I do like you, a lot but I don’t know if I love you” (Name) says in an oddly serious voice

“How do you not know?” Antonio asks confused making (Name) sigh

He looks down, releasing Antonio to let him finish cleaning the cut and start bandaging it.

“I never felt love before so I don’t know how to give it” he says

“What about Nita?” Antonio asks and (Name) chuckles

“She’s just a friend, maybe family, I helped her and she chose to stay with me”

“Oh”

Antonio pats down the bandages and washes his hands. Before he can put the first aid kit away (Name) pulls him into his lap, making him blush.

“Wh-What are you d-doing?” he stutters

“I may not know if I love you but I still want to be with you, can I at least do that?” (Name) asks

Antonio is silent, moving so he is more comfortable with his head on (Names) chest and (Names) chin on his head.

“I want to learn how to love, can you teach me?” (Name) asks

Antonio sits there, (Names) arms wraps securely around his waist and his back resting on the man’s warm, muscular chest.

“Sì, I’ll teach you, just promise to not leave me” Antonio says, leaning closer

“I promise I will never leave you” (Name) says, his grip on Antonio tightening a little